Tried

I’ve tried writing
about other people
ever since you left
But all I have is a piece of paper
with your name written in ink.

I’ve tried kissing
strangers
ever since you left
Whether if its
to forget the taste of your lips on mine or
to find what’s close to it –
I don’t really know.

I’ve tried vodka and cigarettes
ever since you left
With a bad hangover and
the smell of smoke on my hair,
I’m still missing what was.

I’ve tried going back to places
we used to go to
ever since you left
But they’ve become foreign,
and I lost my way.

I’ve tried going to sleep
with the lights on
ever since you left
Whether if its to scare away
your shadow or
to guide you back home –
I’m not sure.